I didn't take any drugs, no body worry...just alcohol...and in LARGE quantities.
I've also had some alone time in the past 2 days to think about things which has been helpful and exciting.
I am a "guy rehabilitator." I show them that all guys aren't assholes. I show them that someone can be nice to them without expecting too much. I show them that there's good people in the world. I did it with JD (summer of 08), JC (summer of 09), JS (fall of 09) and now CW (winter of 10). I'm not a doormat, I don't let them walk all over me. I am honest with them and don't try to mask over any harsh truths.
*as an aside, if anyone from my f+cebook found this blog, I have lots of friends with those initials lol.
The problem with all of this is that the very next guy they meet, they fall in love with and get into LTRs with! It's happened 3 out of 4 times!! (it's been too short of time for CW as of yet)...
I feel a bit used. Is it better to have a feeling and lose it or to never let that out? Or was that feeling even real?
I don't want baggage from them. I don't want to feel confused and hurt and alone at the end of the day.
I don't want to be the boy that never fell in love. Back to doing my thing...continuing rehab for now.