I had a great holiday! It was 4 days filled with fun, food, football, family, friends, even Framboise (raspberry beer), and another F-word if you can believe it...I think I haven't had as whirlwind of a time in a long while. I think the most interesting thing I heard was the turkey infused with vodka.
Yesterday, I read an article about the 'turkey drop' which is the last time someone can break up with their significant other until after Vday in February. So I didn't really ponder much on it until it was 430 this morning, and I woke up to piss. (I can only imagine how funny I look with my breathe-right on my nose, my sleep mask on my eyes, and my hoodie on over my head walking around my apt in the middle of the night).
Then I couldn't get the thought out of my head that I would spend another holiday season alone, how I was a failure, and how it feels to wake up alone every morning. Well, after a 20 minute pity party, I was still tired so I decided that I wanted to get over that thought. It comes down to not worrying about things what will be will be, c'est le vie. After that I fell back to sleep and dreamed about some boys and woke up refreshed and alive. I'm looking forward to the holidays, to making this one special, and to enjoying the time that I have (for none are promised tomorrow).
Sorry to be a bit down; I'm actually feeling much better today since the sun is shining!