Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Sometimes...

...I wake up at night and can't help but get upset at the way things have gone with my roommate or parents.

...I wonder how long I'll be single, right now running at 3 years with no end in sight.

...I sleep better than I have in years due to the silence and darkness around me.

...I kick myself for overindulging (and blame it on 'only this once' which has been happening all the time lately.)

...I dread life and all of it's quandaries.

...I hope for change in this country (city, state, my life) but the people around me bring me back down from the clouds.

...I look at porn at work (and I can't help it... GOTTA stop).

...I think about what life would have been like had I not made certain decisions. I live life with few regrets but hope someday to forgive myself of them.

...I wish I could spend time with the people that I love rather than the life of work and boredom alone.

...I wish I was out of debt.

...I think about what life will be like 5, 10, or 25 years from now.

...I dream that I'm in my favorite places in the world.

...I have the strong desire to change the world.

...I have the burden of wanting to be a superhero but I'm only a man.

...I am content with the way things are, the people in my life, where my office is, what I do in real life, and how much of an impact I have on people on a daily basis.

1 comment:

B said...

Porn at work? Bad.

Focus on the good in this list, the not so good will work itself out with time. You're a good guy buddy, it's a pleasure to call you a friend.