My Box

This post is just for me. I've had a rude awakening as of late:

I only fit in my box.
I'm not good enough for some people and too good for others.
I have worked hard and yet it feels as if I haven't worked hard enough.
I am asking for more.
In this world of haves and have nots, I'm still not sure where I stand.
I am a misfit & embrace that.
I am dealing with feeling a bit lost at the moment.
Some things are great, some are good, some are bad, some are not meant to be dealt with right now, others overdue. I guess it's life.

What the Hell Happened to Me!?!

Sorry it's so difficult for me to keep up with the blog...I have a lot going on and not a whole lot of blogworthy stories. It's been an interesting year thus far and I'll hit the high points (since my last post which was in SEPTEMBER!?! I'm sorry, I suck).

• I met, dated, fell in love with, first boyfriend, first Holidays, everything with K. We broke up in February.
• He wanted me to work on me, but with the time commitments that I give to work, friends, and K, I didn't have any time for me. I realized that K would be a better friend than boyfriend.
• I gained about 20 pounds in 2010...all fat.
• I lost 25 pounds in 2011...all fat, and gaining muscle.

I'm constantly becoming the new me. I find problems with myself and I'm working on them. I've started a lot of great habits and I'm learning self control in ways that I need.

All I have is all I need. Let it be. Ask for what I need.

Things with my dad are better than they have ever been. Things with my mom are not the same, and I mourn that. Things with my sister & brother in law are pleasant & nice. My friends have changed, both faces and situations, and I'm good with that.

In 2011, I am starting a new business.

In 2011, I am asking for a major raise at my corporate job.

In 2011, I am remaking my body to save my life.

In 2011, I plan to buy a house.

In 2011, I am living with my heart, soul, head and cock looking to what's right, not convenient or easy.

In 2011, I am finding common sense, which is uncommon.

In 2011, I am not letting those bastards grind me down.

In 2011, I am getting a puppy.

Cheers!

As a Post Script, I originally wanted to rant about why some guys have forgotten how to kiss. I don't know when the 'drunk sorority girl sloppy lips' came into vogue, but it's commonality is getting really worrisome.

GO VOTE TODAY!

MAD AS HELL!!

I didn’t write this. The actual author is unknown but he/she speaks gospel. In anticipation of this election and most assured coronation of the astroturfed group as kingmakers, no matter the outcome:

You didn’t get mad when the Supreme Court stopped a legal recount and appointed a President.

You didn’t get mad when Cheney allowed Energy company officials to dictate Energy policy and push us to invade Iraq .

You didn’t get mad when a covert CIA operative got outed.

You didn’t get mad when the Patriot Act got passed.

You didn’t get mad when we illegally invaded a country that posed no threat to us. You didn’t get mad when we spent over 800 billion (and counting) on said illegal war.

You didn’t get mad when Bush borrowed more money from foreign sources than the previous 42 Presidents combined.

You didn’t get mad when over 10 billion dollars in cash just disappeared in Iraq .

You didn’t get mad when you found out we were torturing people.

You didn’t get mad when Bush embraced trade and outsourcing policies that shipped 6 million American jobs out of the country.

You didn’t get mad when the government was illegally wiretapping Americans.

You didn’t get mad when we didn’t catch Bin Laden.

You didn’t get mad when Bush rang up 10 trillion dollars in combined budget and current account deficits.

You didn’t get mad when you saw the horrible conditions at Walter Reed.

You didn’t get mad when we let a major US city, New Orleans drown.

You didn’t get mad when we gave people who had more money than they could spend, the filthy rich, over a trillion dollars in taxbreaks. You didn’t get mad with the worst 8 years of job creations in several decades.

You didn’t get mad when over 200,000 US Citizens lost their lives because they had no health insurance.

You didn’t get mad when lack of oversight and regulations from the Bush Administration caused US Citizens to lose 12 trillion dollars in investments, retirement, and home values.

No…..You finally got mad

When a black man was elected President and decided that people in America deserved the right to see a doctor if they are sick.

Yes, illegal wars, lies, corruption, torture, job losses by the millions, stealing your tax dollars to make the rich richer, and the worst economic disaster since 1929 are all okay with you, but helping fellow Americans who are sick…Oh, Hell No!!

Here it is...